New Blog

As I have recently been inspired to begin writing again, *YAY* :) I will not only be posting more but also decided to add a separate blog just for poetry, random thoughts and short stories. So be on the look-out for more to come and in the meantime check me out at www.incidentalsagaciousness.blogspot.com

Peace,
The A~nomaly

Late night memories......

Late night....I know its been a while since I've posted. There has been so much on my mind and so much going on I could barely separate my thoughts to blog. Well tonight I have a treat.... a late night freestyle....it is very dear to me, cried while composing. Below is some mood music (what I listened to while I wrote) I suggest listening while reading. Hopefully you will feel me on this....if not.... oh well, I'm sure the person it is about feels it (has no idea this has been written) but I feel his presence heavily in my shandoh lately, and especially tonight.

My love

I feel your presence

In ways unimaginable to the common

I breathe your memory

I shiver at the thought of our love

The pace of my heart is faster

When I hear your name

Subconsciously I await your return

When I can again be your Queen

I shed a tear at the thought

We may never again be

I shed a tear when I remember

Just how beautifully imperfect it was

My soul yearns to be touched by your hands

How strong

I remember the overwhelming sense of security

Your smile

Forced a smile upon my young face

My vision blurred

All I could see was your majesty

Divinity

Your mind filled my heart with purity

Unforsaken

Uninvited

I live in your thoughts

You haunt me in my dreams

Unaware of your power

Oblivious of my devotion

I live for you

Better myself for you

I wish

For

You

For with you I am I

My thoughts wear your name

My music whispers your love

These feelings uncontrolled

And the best is yet to be told…….

And here is where I close the diary and attempt to dream good dreams

Thank you for reading

The A~nomaly

Self- Examination

Not until we are lost do we begin to understand ourselves. ~Henry David Thoreau

Every moment of every second of every minute of every day, every human being is making a choice. Some choose to hide their true identity while others choose to live in the open hoping to gain some sense of acceptance by those surrounding them. Some choose to acquire knowledge while others willfully choose to remain a prisoner of ignorance. Some deception, others honesty. Some tears, others violence. Some choose to create the person the aspire to be while others cut, fold, bend and by any means necessary try to shape themselves into what they have been subliminally duped into what society has told them to be.

Most times people are completely oblivious to the decisions they are making, the affects those decisions have on those around them and the consequences that are sure to follow. Even worse some people choose to be oblivious to their decisions - in other words; THEY CHOOSE NOT TO THINK! The brain is the most powerful muscle and everyday without exercise is a day that muscle withers away.

Why do some choose to be ignorant? Is it society? Is it parental upbringing? Is it laziness? Why do some choose to do what they know to be morally wrong? Is it free will or self-servicing? Why do some ask their friends/peers questions to which they already know the answer? Are they looking for confirmation or an excuse to do something wrong because someone else agreed with it?

Self-examination is one of the keys to successfully bettering ones self, thus making it possible to consciously make better decisions. A true self examination entails getting in touch with our soul, understanding those deep dark secrets we only whisper to ourselves in the dark, touching our inner spirit, and scrutinizing our hearts. It must no longer be replaced by the opinions of talk show host, t.v. and other forms of media . Sometimes it takes being lost, feeling alone and unaccomplished for such an examination to take place. It is then we can begin to understand why we've made the decisions we've made, who we are, who we would like to be and the type of decisions will make going forward. Never should we stop bettering ourselves, never should we disregard decisions. Never should we give up!

"He who knows others is learned; He who knows himself is wise." ~Lao-tzu, Tao te Ching

Stepping down from the soapbox.....
Peace,
The A-nomaly

It would be nice.....

First and foremost I want to remind everyone to keep Haiti, its victims, survivors and their families alike, in your prayers. There is so much that can be said what is going on there but real aid/assistance is motivated from the heart, not just by sending money and saying/posting words. Therefore I limit my comments to that.


So I guess the aforementioned topic somewhat provides a segway into what I am feeling tonight. What gets under my skin are people who are the complete and utter opposite of everything they profess to be.

Those people who claim they are so giving and and doing good will but are really self-serving. SELFISH!

"I'm going to donate $5 to Haiti", really just to say they did but wont even call their own family/friend in the hospital here in the U.S.

The people who are always posting/updating their status/changing their text signature implying they are so wise yet don't seem to have common sense (which by the way isn't common anymore). Always asking God and everyone who will listen why they have the problems they have. Let me see, try actually reading and COMPREHENDING some of those quotes you get off the internet and books and movies.

And let me not forget those fair-weather friends. The ones who call you their "best friend" but can never quite be a friend when you need one the most, but always call you to hear the latest gossip, or go to a party or when THEY need a favor.

I'm just saying it would be nice if people actually tried to be the people they proclaim to be. Let's do better!


Anywho I think I've vented enough about this......


Peace!

The Ex-Factor!

Ok guys, this one is near and dear to me. I tried my best to shy away from this but it just wont go away! I was in the car running errands yesterday and Lauryn Hill's 'Ex-Factor' comes on. Now believe me when I tell you this is one of my favorite songs by her just like most people I know. But this time listening to the song was different. I've always felt the song but yesterday I felt the song like it was my heartbeat. My eyes welled up with tears as I song along with the song pulling into the Walgreens parking lot. Every word of that song sounded like booming reminders of my relationship with my "ex-factor". Now I'm sure that everyone can relate to this song in one way or another, male/female, young/old....you know how this feels! Fighting to stay in a relationship, fighting to leave a relationship, this uncontrollable feeling of helplessness as you continue in the battle with yourself. Knowing that letting go is what you need to do but the love you have for this person is too strong to just let go. Feeling like you are on the losing end of the stick but somehow letting this person back in because they are like an addiction. The battle of not knowing to stay or go, the battle of knowing what to do and not being strong enough to do it!
Somebody feel me!?

Anyway I just had to let this one out..... check out the video to the talented Ms Hill's Ex-Factor




"Loving you is like a battle, and we both end up with scars"


PEACE!!!
~The 'A'nomaly~

Hey Young World!

Ok so this is my first time "blogging" and I have so much on my mind I dont know where to start. Being that its a new year and all I think I will start off with sharing one of my FAVORITE poems, Desiderata (Latin for "desired things"). I read it every so often because the truths within the poem contain serious reminders about this here thing called life. Enjoy!

Desiderata By Max Ehrmann

Go placidly amid the noise and haste,

and remember what peace there may be in silence.

As far as possile without surrender

be on good terms with all persons.

Speak your truth quietly and clearly,

and listen to others,

even the dull and the ignorant;

they too have their sotry.

Avoid loud and aggressive persons,

they are vexations to the spirit.

If you compare yourself with others,

you may become vain and bitter;

for always there will be greater and

lesser persons than yourself.

Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans.

Keep interested in your own career, however humble;

it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.

Exercise caution in your business affairs;

for the world is full of trickery.

But let this not blind you to what virtue there is;

many persons strive for high ideals;

and everywhere life is full of heroism.

Be yourself.

Especially, do not feign affection.

Neither be cynical about love;

for in the face of all aridity and

disenchantment

it is as perennial as the grass.

Take kindly the counsel of the years

gracefully surrendering the things of youth.

Nuture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden

misfortune.

But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings.

Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.

Beyond a wholesome discipline,

be gentle with yourself.

You are a child of the universe,

no less than the trees and the stars;

you have a right to be here.

And whether or not it is clear to you,

no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.

Therefore be at peace with God,

whatever you conceive Him to be,

and whatever your labors and

aspirations,

in the noisy confusion of life keep

peace with your soul.

With all its sham, drudgery, and broken dreams,

it is still a beautiful world.

Be cheerful.

Strive to be happy.